At the actual party we mostly chilled out and after some of the people had left and a bunch of us grabbed our various musical instruments and played for a bit. B and I were one of the last ones to leave and overall I think we both had a really good time. I know that I decided not to let the past crap bother me. Of course I think it probably helped that I’d been trying to let it all go since I’d first been made aware of the problem. I have to say though, I’m glad that the air is cleared now.
As many of you who read my journal know, I’ve been struggling with my weight and my eating habits for several years now and I feel that it’s finally gotten to the point where I need to really kick my own butt. Last night I made the decision that I would make a vow to myself. I’d thought of making a vow to the Gods but I’m not sure if I’m comfortable with that quite at this point. Perhaps I will change my mind. In any case, I have vowed to myself that as of today I will not eat potato chips until I am down to my ideal weight. No exceptions. I’m even thinking of writing “vow” on a little piece of paper and sticking it on the back of my watch or something so that I always have it with me as a reminder. I know that this is going to be a very hard thing for me to accomplish since chips are my comfort food but I’m just going to have to find some other way to cope that doesn’t involve junk food.
