Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

The birthday party went fairly well yesterday. Almost all of the teachers were there and the present was received fairly well. It helped that B had spoken with C earlier in the day, at school. He told her that he knew what she was referring to and who had told her that he’d been trash talking her. She confirmed that his guess was right so he clarified that nothing we said was bad and he’d doubled checked with the other people who were at the table. He also said that she should be careful who she trusts because if someone can do that to him, they can just as easily do it to her. He also found out that C apparently thought I must hate her. He said that the feeling was mutual and I thought that she hated me… especially given the whole getting mad about asking if she wanted me to host her party. So I guess that’s been sorted out as best as it can. I’m still going to be careful around a lot people but at least it’s becoming apparent very quickly who those people are.

At the actual party we mostly chilled out and after some of the people had left and a bunch of us grabbed our various musical instruments and played for a bit. B and I were one of the last ones to leave and overall I think we both had a really good time. I know that I decided not to let the past crap bother me. Of course I think it probably helped that I’d been trying to let it all go since I’d first been made aware of the problem. I have to say though, I’m glad that the air is cleared now.

As many of you who read my journal know, I’ve been struggling with my weight and my eating habits for several years now and I feel that it’s finally gotten to the point where I need to really kick my own butt. Last night I made the decision that I would make a vow to myself. I’d thought of making a vow to the Gods but I’m not sure if I’m comfortable with that quite at this point. Perhaps I will change my mind. In any case, I have vowed to myself that as of today I will not eat potato chips until I am down to my ideal weight. No exceptions. I’m even thinking of writing “vow” on a little piece of paper and sticking it on the back of my watch or something so that I always have it with me as a reminder. I know that this is going to be a very hard thing for me to accomplish since chips are my comfort food but I’m just going to have to find some other way to cope that doesn’t involve junk food.

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