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Something's wrong

Something is really off with me today. It started this morning and disappeared for most of the afternoon but now it's back. It's that nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach that I get when I'm really worried/embarassed/guilty/upset about something. I can't quite put my finger on what's causing it but it has me a bit concerned (largely because I'm having trouble falling asleep as a result of it). Of course if that wasn't enough, I have a migraine that I'm having trouble shaking. (go figure) Anyway... like I said I don't know what's wrong with me but the feeling is so strong that it's making me nauseous. It could be an anxiety attack I suppose... I used to get them when I was a kid... but again, I don't know what's causing it, which makes it hard to fight. On the one hand I've been feeling a lot calmer lately. I've been feeling more at peace and relaxed in my room since I've been keeping things a bit tidier, so I'm a bit shocked by the suddenness and intensity of this negative feeling. Part of my brain is telling me that I'm suppressing something... another part of my brain is just telling me I'm hungry (but strangely I don't feel like eating). I'm sure it's nothing to really be concerned about but when I get these feelings my mind always seems to want to start jumping to all sorts of wild conclusions.

In other news I finally got to see my dentist and he filed my filling down. It was VERY painful as he didn't use ANYTHING to numb my mouth at all. I really don't think just filing is going to help since it's painful just to touch, but we'll see.

I'm also going to see an acupuncturist tomorrow (recommended by Hazel). I was supposed to go on Tuesday but they had a cancellation for tomorrow morning so I'm going tomorrow instead.

Last but not least, I'm thinking of dropping my summer course. I'm starting to feel like I really should have taken a break from classes. I think the 3 weeks of working full time while trying to get homework done and go to classes is still affecting me. I have an exam on Wednesday that I'm not even close to ready for. I like the course but I just don't know if I can do it. I don't want to have to fight my way through another course like I did last semester (even if I do like this one better). Of course just the thought of dropping the course makes me feel like a failure/quitter/drop-out... not good. I know I should be easier on myself but if I can't even handle ONE summer course I'm in big trouble. I mean, I'm back to part-time... what's my problem?! *sigh* I haven't decided what to do yet but I'm sure I'll figure it out soon enough. I have until about mid July to drop without penalty.

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I've been feeling like that lately too - anxious, sometimes so bad that my stomach is in knots. Remember me asking you if something was wrong?

I'm not sure what it is...perhaps there is something in the air, perhaps something big is on it's way. *hugs* I hope it's not too bad....we all need a break from overwhelming life changes.

I think that mabye dropping the course is a good idea, just for the summer. Give yourself a break. Do some fun stuff. Hang out with me more. ;)

*more hugs cause I love you*
Actually you telling me you'd felt the same way a few days ago was one of the first things that came to mind. Very strange... very strange indeed...

Still teetering about the course... *sigh* I'll figure it out.
I've been having moments like you're talking about fairly frequently myself. I find that i get them more when i'm anxious in general - like lots of things are coming up, stuff isn't working like i want, etc. It tends to pile up for me and then just pop out of no where or something. You've no doubt got some anxiety with the school stuff and Bro is coming down soon too. *hugs*

Now i tend to say 'stick to it' with the class thing, mostly just because you're already in it and you've already paid, etc. I know there is no academic penalty until mid July, but how does the money back schedule work? can you get your money back for it now?
I'm still inclined to say you should try really hard to catch up and do the test this Wednesday and then see how you did. You might surprise yourself and catch up and then that would aleviate some of your worries about it, right? If you don't do well then you can just drop it since you're still in the safe time period for that.
Of course it is up to you. :p

And if dropping one course makes you a 'drop out'... man... i need a 'drop out Queen' medal. :p I dropped all but one course in my 2nd year (out of 4)!

I think we all need a break in general. I know i'm looking forward to my opportunity.... whenever it decides to get here! :p
I have no clue what the refund cut-off is. I'll have to look it up. That might sway my decision a bit... I just hate dropping courses! Ack! I guess it's part of the virgo perfectionist in me... maybe... LoL

Yes... a break will be nice. The end for you is drawing closer though eh?