Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

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more dreams

I had a very intense, frustrating but also amusing dream last night. I don't remember much of it except that I told my room mate from hell off. We've been having a lot of trouble with him (anything from leaving elements on and doors unlocked to "borrowing" books and consuming our food without replacing it). In the dream he was chopping vegetables on the counter, not using a chopping board, so I very harshly said that he should be using a chopping board. Now this guy really seems to be slow to me and this dream was no exception... when he responded with an "oh, I didn't think of that" I promptly tore into him with "No, that's just the problem, you don't think..." and continued to point out how he's used up all the salad dressing without replacing it, allowed one of his friends to drink one of my coolers, takes books from other peoples' rooms/shelves and doesn't ask permission or put them back etc etc etc... believe me, it's a long list. My other roomie and best friend says at this point that he actually did buy more salad dressing (yeah, in my dreams!! LOL Gods I'm punny!) Anyway...that didn't stop my dream tirade and when I woke up I heard a sound that sounded like a metal utensil scraping the bottom of one of my no-stick pans (which he likes to use for cooking and eat out of with metal utensils). I almost lost it and went out there to tear a strip off of him for real. Of course I wasn't sure if what I was hearing was actually the abuse of one of my pots, so I just closed my bedroom door tightly so I wouldn't have to hear it. It was tough after that dream let me tell you! I still felt pumped from having told the dream room mate off! It actually felt really really good!

Thankfully I'm not going to have to put up with his lack of brains and general presence much longer. We gave him his notice at the end of June. He's out by the end of next month. I swear he's just completely clueless. Like there's not brain activity going on at all. Not to mention he creeps me out in other ways that I can't quite identify... I imagine it's just creep vibes or something.

In other news, I took my last birth control pill last night. I'm excited and a bit nervous about it all at the same time. I've been on the pill for about 5 years now and have gotten so used to the rythm of it. I have no idea what to expect by going off it. Of course I'm going to try and keep good track of things in the hopes of finding a pattern to it. I'm expecting the first month or two to be a bit "off" but I'll just have to wait and see how it goes.

I left work right at 3:30 today (for a change). I'm going to have to try and make sure I don't stay late anymore... I don't get paid for it and it just sucks more life out of me... not to mention time that could be spent doing much more interesting things like reading or vegging!! I'm also planning on doing more rituals and observances in my spiritual life and I have trouble doing that if I'm completely run down. I'm hoping I have the energy to do one tonight. I meant to do it yesterday but ended up doing a whole lot of nothing instead. Of course sometimes doing a whole lot of nothing is exactly what I need, and I'm finding it really helped. I'm not feeling as run down and burned out as I have been the past few weeks. Thank the Gods! Feeling like that all the time was really bothering me.

Hmm... I wonder if this message is long enough yet... ok... I guess it is... for now.

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