Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

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Chastized by the doctor....again

Sometimes I wonder why I even go to the doctor's anymore. I got a lecture because I've gained back 4 of the 24lbs I'd lost. My face actually got all flushed at one point and I was on the verge of tears. I just couldn't take it. I've been so stressed lately and KNEW that I'd probably gained back a few pounds, but I really didn't need to hear how awful that was and how I'm still a bit away from my ideal weight...bla bla bla. He notice that I was upset too because HIS face got flushed and he told me not to get upset with him. He asked me if I wanted to see the dietician and I told him that I hadn't found it helpful last time. He was ok with that and said that he could understand where I was coming from. I told him that I've been trying to get a good 30 minutes of exercise in a day he said that was great and that I just needed to focus on eating properly. The one useful thing he said is that I should limit my fat and carb intake. This was what I needed to hear because for the most part that's what I've been trying to do. Thankfully, some information that indicates I might actually be doing something right!! I'm still upset about the whole thing. I didn't realize I'd gained that much of the weight back and now I felt really disappointed with myself. I know he just wants me to be healthy, but it's just so hard to hear the same thing over and over... "You have to lose weight". It's like a never ending race. I had a good amount of weight to lose but it just seems that the end is nowhere in sight and that's what's getting me down. I've been working at this for well over a year now and I'm still not where he wants me to be. Hell, I guess I'm not where I want to be either.


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