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Indescribable

Despite being tired and getting a migraine part way through the day I'm feeling so good today. I just feel amazing. I can't take all the credit for how I've been feeling lately either...and that's the part I find the strangest. I don't know what to make of it, so I'm not going to try. I'm just going to feel. Let myself truly feel for the first time in almost two years. No matter what happens in the future, I have decided to just go with it and let it be what it will be.... come what may. As one of my online friends said in her LJ, all we have is today. You never know what tomorrow will hold, so live for today.

Even though I already know that the music from Moulin Rouge speaks to me very deeply there are just some things that fit perfectly with how I feel lately. Thank you to my friends for reminding me that it's OK to feel like this. I sometimes get so caught up in worrying and analyzing that I forget that it's ok to just BE and FEEL. I remember a few months back...standing out in the rain and feeling an overwhelming sense of love and wholeness. This wasn't directed towards anyone in particular, nor was it cause by anyone but me. Now I feel that way again and I like it dammit! I want to bottle it and keep it for a rainy day!

"Never knew, I could feel like this.
Like I've never seen the sky before..."

"Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place,
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace."

Anyway, I'm going to post this now before I lose my nerve and delete it!
  • Current Mood: Perfect
  • Current Music: Moulin Rouge Sountrack - Come What May
How nice to feel so great. I'm very happy for you. :-) You certainly deserve it.
Tell that to your brother! I'm "forcing" him to watch it with me while he's here. (of course it didn't take much convincing ;) shhh, don't tell!) The Elton John song is "Your Song" and also just amazingly well done. I was a bit skeptical about how well Ewan "Obi Wan" MacGregor could sing, but I was FLOORED when he opened his mouth. Moulin Rouge is definitely one of my favourite movies.