Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

Just because

Don't really know what to say... feeling kind of "in between" right now. Probably going to go to bed soon but wanted to write something, even if it's my own pointless ramblings.

Having trouble getting used to the glasses. Love them, but just not used to the way things look and the way they feel. Feeling a bit of a headache from them today, but that happens when you get new glasses apparently. I keep thinking I'll just take them off for a few minutes to rest my eyes and realize that's even worse! Oh well, I guess I just have to be patient and wait for my eyes to adjust on their own.

Really tired... the train was late getting in last night (as usual) and I was just so whipped this morning that I called in sick to work (again). I really have to stop doing that... some days are just easier than others.

I wish I could figure out what's gotten into me these days. I'm just not myself. Of course that's probably evident from some of my previous posts. I'm feeling like I'm kind of "stuck" in a way... like I should be moving forward, but I'm not... I don't know how or don't have the energy to do it... I'm not sure exactly, but it's frustrating. At the same time, I sometimes feel like just wallowing in my own self pity. Just get wrapped up in it. Let it take me away. I guess some days I just need to know that I can still feel, cry, and hurt. It's part of what makes me who I am. I know that sounds negative, but I don't mean it like that. Getting wrapped up in my emotions is kind of therapeutic for me. I get to know them instead of just shoving them under the rug to build up. That way when it's time for them to go, they're gone.

I seem to be yawning an awful lot now. I'm thinking I should take that as a sign that it's time to sleep. Don't want to miss another day of work.


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