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Bad night

Had an ok day today... no migraine, so can't be too bad...however I'm having a bad night. Why? Couldn't tell you. I just know that I feel like crap. Just a mood swing I guess.
Trying to sort out my issues. Figure out what's bothering me. Not doing very well. Thinking about it seems to make it worse.
Tired of being invisible.
Tired of so many things.
Tired in general.
I don't know what's gotten into me, yet at the same time I do.
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm "second place" all the time.
I don't want to just be mediocre.
It seems I don't even want to deal with anything anymore.
I just end up feeling more useless, miserable, depressed, angry, bitter... and on and on.
What's wrong with me?
My life is fine, but I feel out of control.
My life is fine, but I feel so alone.
I swear I can't take this shit!
I don't even know what this shit is!
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I know exactly how you feel.

I'm not even going to try to explain/comfort/try to make things rosy.

All I can say is try to be good to yourself, rest, think, be alone or with friends, and the answers will come. Maybe it's time for a major change.
Well what triggers your feelings of being invisible or feeling "second place"?
Maybe if you can identify that it will be easier to deal with.

Just sending you *hugs* cause you are you.

Valkyri sent me this

"Neptune is conjunct the sun, it's starting to seperate now. A lot of people
whose journals I read, and others that I know from elsewhere are having
depression issues too, myself included. If it doesn't pass completely in the
next little while, then it will improve. Clouded issues and depression are
the words of the day lately, but it will pass. "

Interesting eh?