Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

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Bad night

Had an ok day today... no migraine, so can't be too bad...however I'm having a bad night. Why? Couldn't tell you. I just know that I feel like crap. Just a mood swing I guess.
Trying to sort out my issues. Figure out what's bothering me. Not doing very well. Thinking about it seems to make it worse.
Tired of being invisible.
Tired of so many things.
Tired in general.
I don't know what's gotten into me, yet at the same time I do.
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm "second place" all the time.
I don't want to just be mediocre.
It seems I don't even want to deal with anything anymore.
I just end up feeling more useless, miserable, depressed, angry, bitter... and on and on.
What's wrong with me?
My life is fine, but I feel out of control.
My life is fine, but I feel so alone.
I swear I can't take this shit!
I don't even know what this shit is!

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