There are still a bunch of other things I'd like to do today, mostly cleaning related, but I have to take it easy otherwise I'm just going to make myself more sick. At the moment I can't tell how much of my sneezing is my cold and how much is allergies! LoL
It seems though, that despite being sick I'm still feeling pretty chipper. I've been feeling somehow more centered lately. I don't know how else to describe it. I seem to be able to enjoy the happiness in my life and let the negative more or less slide off my back. It's been having a few good effects on my life as a whole too. For one thing, my feelings aren't getting hurt as easily by others, I'm not feeling as "left out" as I was and I think that's mainly because I'm not expecting to be included as much as I used to. I just go about my own thing, enjoy my own life and hey, if someone else decides to invite me along for a ride I'll hop in, but I won't wait for them to pick me up. (how's that for an analogy!) I've even been feeling less worn out lately and haven't been napping as much.... well except for today seeing as I'm sick! LOL I wake up in the morning and don't care whether it's sunny, cloudy, rainy, snowing etc because it's a good day inside as long as I make it good.
I know that somewhere on the other side of the world there is beauty being created right now. I know that someone notices that beauty and shared it so that I could see it too. Thanks kisobel.
I think that despite being sick, this isn't an excuse for me to wish these hours away. I will never get them back. Thank you for reminding me of that valkyri. I think that I'm truly starting to understand your words, but more than just understand, I'm starting to believe and live this moment, because it really is only this moment that counts.
*sits back and just enjoys BEING*