Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

Full Stop

Looks like I may have been pushing myself a little bit too hard. I had a rather intense mental breakdown last night that involved flipping out at Jud over absolutely nothing sometime around 10:30pm and then dissolving into hysterical crying for the next 3 hours or so. I suddenly realized just how much pressure I've been putting on myself to complete my novel this year and how much of my life I can no longer clearly remember. I realized how stressed, annoyed and frustrated I am with the ass-backwards way half of the things at work are handled, along with the way that it makes my co-workers feel. I'm worried about school, not certain how I'm going to catch up after missing two classes, I'm worried about money and most of all, I'm worried about not having the foggiest idea what I really want out of life.

So, I crashed.

When I woke up this morning, it felt like I'd been hit by a truck. I still feel a bit emotionally messed up and I have a killer headache but at least I don't feel like a total basketcase.

Definitely going to be taking it easy tonight.

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.