November 21st, 2003

early morning ramblings

I'm feeling really discouraged about my classes. It just seems that I can't quite apply myself and dedicate the time I need to in order to get a good grade. I keep thinking that I should just drop one of the classes and focus on the other one, but then I think that this should just be a challenge that can overcome if I just work at it. Some days I feel like I'm overextending myself. I work 5 days a week, 5 hours a day...then have class on Wednesday and Thursday nights. It doesn't sound like much, but it's draining. It's draining without having fully applied myself! What will I feel like if I do "try harder". I don't want to burn myself out, but I feel like I have a very short wick sometimes.

On a completely unrelated note, I'm getting better at playing the guitar already. The notes are coming easier and sounding better. My fingers are getting good and tough, so now I'm playing for longer amounts of time. It feels great! I find it really relaxing to play, so I find myself using it as a method of procrastination every now and then. That and sleeping which I seem to be doing too much of these days.

Back to school stuff... Wednesday was a crazy day for me. I went to work, then straight to school, then to the pharmacy to get my prescription for my migraines filled, then I went to the university library to get some books for my field work essay, then on to a class on Greek religion that C was doing on campus. The Greek religion class was great, but the handout and book suggestions may have been too good... I'm already seeing myself spending ridiculous amounts of money enhancing my library! hehehe Of course, I'm going to take it slowly because I'm trying to be a bit better with my money.

Guess that's about it for now, still a bit tired and my stomach is bothering me, but I'm sure I'll live.