Although my anxiety disorder is a relatively new phenomenon in my life, I was thinking this morning (while feeling anxious) how many issues in my life are recurring problems. It's obvious that despite my numerous efforts to correct these things, I'm obviously missing something because I keep cycling back. I need to find the root cause and deal with that.
The main issues that seem to keep coming up are:
Money - overspending
Insecurity - in general and in close relationships
Exercise (or lack thereof)
Of course… on top of all of this, I’m dealing with my pain issues. I have an appointment scheduled to see my doctor next week but I’m worried that there won’t be anything we can do about it. My last doctor brushed off the issue of the strain in my right back/shoulder and never dealt with it, so I’m just hoping this time it will be different.
I was thinking of doing some stream of consciousness writing to see if I can get to the root of the other problems. I’m sure that the pain issues play into the whole thing to a certain extent (as coping mechanisms) but I really do feel there’s more to it than that.