Today, I'm actually worse again. At this point, I don't know if I can make it through a full shift today. I made it in to work but fell asleep on streetcar and am struggling with the sensitivity to sound and light (both a problem when you work in a brightly lit call centre).
I'll tell you one thing that I'm certain of... I'm sick of pain. I've been sick of it for years and it's no different now. I WANT to be able to work a full month without missing days. I WANT to be able to go out with friends without hesitation because I'm not feeling 100%. I WANT to be able to think clearly without the fogginess I get from trying to cope with pain.
The problem is that I don't want anyone to think I'm being a drama queen and just blowing off work. There's another girl at work who also suffers from migraines and chemical sensitivity who tends to miss a fair amount of work. For whatever reason, I have very little pity for her and I guess that's why I don't expect anyone to cut me any slack either.
I'm just feeling really grumpy right now.
