kaleekolai

I ended up having a four day long weekend... most of it spent in a great deal of pain. My head started hurting around midday on Sunday and continued to get worse Monday peaking later that night. I slept with an ice pack, trying to get the pain to go away for the workday on Tuesday, knowing how bad it would look to miss the day right after the long weekend... it didn't work. I spent most of Tuesday passed out and the other part of it still fighting the pain. Nothing was working to get rid of it. I got to sleep late and was still fighting some pain on Tuesday but it became accompanied by some nice grogginess.

Today, I'm actually worse again. At this point, I don't know if I can make it through a full shift today. I made it in to work but fell asleep on streetcar and am struggling with the sensitivity to sound and light (both a problem when you work in a brightly lit call centre).

I'll tell you one thing that I'm certain of... I'm sick of pain. I've been sick of it for years and it's no different now. I WANT to be able to work a full month without missing days. I WANT to be able to go out with friends without hesitation because I'm not feeling 100%. I WANT to be able to think clearly without the fogginess I get from trying to cope with pain.

The problem is that I don't want anyone to think I'm being a drama queen and just blowing off work. There's another girl at work who also suffers from migraines and chemical sensitivity who tends to miss a fair amount of work. For whatever reason, I have very little pity for her and I guess that's why I don't expect anyone to cut me any slack either.

I'm just feeling really grumpy right now.