Nothing but Crows (kaleekolai) wrote,
Nothing but Crows

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up and down like a yo-yo

I'm feeling rather moody this morning. I think I slept too much last night, having gotten almost twelve hours of sleep, and even the sunshine outside doesn't seem to be making much of a difference. Maybe I just need to give it a bit more time before it has some effect on my groggy self.

My stomach is on the fritz because I actually decided to try and eat breakfast. Go figure! It's nothing major really; just a little bit of indigestion but it's annoying.

In other news, my appetite is a fraction of what it used to be and I'm still not able to lose weight. I'm eating less, and making better food choices overall, to no avail. I am by no means starving myself but I tend to stop eating when I'm full now instead of trying to finish everything on my plate. Sometimes, if it's really delicious, I'll try and stuff a bit more in my stomach but generally not to the point where I feel bloated, which used to be what I'd do. I've pretty much cut pop out of my diet, don't supersize my meals and haven't been eating at places like McDonald's nearly as much as I was. I'm also walking a bit more than I used to. Not a lot more mind you but I'll walk an extra block or two before hopping on a streetcar or subway. It's not enough to build muscle or anything but it gets the body moving and the heart pumping so it's better than nothing... or is it?

I'm putting this behind a cut simply because it's a lot of the same whining and complaining that you've all already been subjected to.
As usual, I have no desire to go to class tonight and I very well might not. This lack of enthusiasm for school has me a bit concerned since it seems I never want to go to class. I'm not sure if it's just not that interesting to me or if it's the fact that I feel like I'm spinning my wheels.

I'm only in each of the classes one day a week, so I think I'm having trouble really getting into it. I'm also at work all day, which really seems to be my actual life whereas school seems more of a hobby. I know that I'm doing it mainly for myself and not to "get ahead" or "get a job" but rather to get a piece of paper that says I did something. Of course, these days, more an more companies are asking for degrees... like call centres... so it's still a good idea for me to actually get mine. *sigh* By the time I have my degree, if I continue school at my current rate, I'll be in my mid to late thirties. It seems insane to me. The whole "well it's better than nothing" argument isn't holding much water in my mind either.

I guess a lot of this lack of interest in school has to do with the fact that there are other things in my life that seem like bigger priorities (i.e. - work, paying off debts, getting my own place). School doesn't really take away from it that much (except that it does cost a fortune) but it's just another bit of stress to deal with on an ongoing basis. I wonder if it's all worth it.
Tags: breakfast, indigestion, moody, school, weight, weight loss

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