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Birthdays, Dreams and more...

Happy Birthday to ME! Happy Birthday to MEEEE!

Yup, it’s my birthday and I’m going to try and make it a good one. I’m not sure how quite yet but at least I do know that I’m going out for a movie tonight with Hazel and Eumelos. There are a few things that I’d like to get done today, including talking with the Department of Religion about doing a specialist degree and making an appointment with the health centre to get my chest x-rayed since this cough is still hanging on. It is better but it’s not gone and I am a bit worried about it. Of course I might get called in for a group interview with the market research company at one o’clock so we’ll see what I can do until then. So far, I’m doing well with the sitting around and waiting type of activities interspersed with a bit of catching up on my readings for class. Edit: No call, no interview today. Can’t say I’m upset.

I woke up at 8:30 this morning which is really early for me. I just couldn’t get back to sleep and was a bit shaken by a dream I’d had. It was a dream about falling in love but then being sort of rejected and I’m sure it had to do with the movie I watched late last night (De-Lovely). It pretty much went along the lines of me being introduced to someone who I felt I really clicked with, starting to get to know that person, little bits of affection begin and then at one point he (Vance was his name, no doubt because I’d been talking to M about the position at his work where a guy name Vance just quit) didn’t show up to see me when he was supposed to which led me to look all over for him. He’d stayed with friends apparently and hadn’t had any intention of letting me know. So I felt the pain of one sided love and was sad. There was also a point in the dream where I was looking for him and they told me he might be staying at the same place as my step-dad (my step-dad is dead but it didn’t seem that way in the dream) so I was directed to a hotel in the town. I don’t remember actually seeing my step-dad and Vance was not there. The town I was in was a seaside town and had a beach like you would find in more tropical weather although this was supposed to be somewhere in Canada, Nova Scotia or New Brunswick I believe. I went around the town looking for Vance on a bicycle and remember stopping in to someone’s house to find him. There was a woman there and I think at least one kid. She wasn’t a love interest but rather a mother figure in a place where a bunch of people were crashing. I remember being very disappointed when I found Vance, probably because of his general attitude towards the whole situation and not feeling like anything was wrong. The last thing I remember is he and I taking our bikes along the coast trying to get somewhere but there was a distance between us now that I knew he didn’t feel about me the same way I felt about him.

Why did this dream shake me up? I’m not sure. Perhaps simply because I’m a little fragile emotionally, especially when it comes to matters of the heart. It might have simply been a fear of rejection manifesting itself through a dream.

My stomach is feeling a little bit sick again this morning. This time I don’t think that it’s nerves but it may be. I’m not sure why I’m having so much trouble with my stomach these days but I’m glad at least that it doesn’t seem to be lasting throughout the day as it did before. I do seem to have my appetite back to some degree, even if it isn’t as big as it was originally. That might not necessarily be a bad thing either since I was prone to overeating (as long as I don't go to the other extreme).

I had my first class Monday night. It was the psychology of religion course and I’m thinking I’m going to enjoy it. It’s pretty heavy on the essays but that means there are no tests. I think I’m better with essays than tests anyway, so we’ll see how I do. The professor seemed nice enough and I didn’t miss anything from the first week because he pretty much just went over what the course was all about. My other class is on Thursday and I’m also looking forward to it. I do, however, have a lot of reading to catch up on already but I’m not too worried about that. I just have to make sure I discipline myself!

I’m almost wishing I lived a bit closer to campus too since I can just pop over and hook into the internet there for free. Of course there is a 1 Gig usage limit but that’s not too bad if you aren’t downloading things. Besides, there’s always the corner store with their two dollars an hour internet access.
another trick - if you go to the Croissant Tree (Near Mullins) you can surf the net for a bit if you buy something.
Apparently there are quite a few places like that now but soon I shall have a connection all to myself!! Mwahahahahaaaaaaa