Goth face

Full Stop

Looks like I may have been pushing myself a little bit too hard. I had a rather intense mental breakdown last night that involved flipping out at Jud over absolutely nothing sometime around 10:30pm and then dissolving into hysterical crying for the next 3 hours or so. I suddenly realized just how much pressure I've been putting on myself to complete my novel this year and how much of my life I can no longer clearly remember. I realized how stressed, annoyed and frustrated I am with the ass-backwards way half of the things at work are handled, along with the way that it makes my co-workers feel. I'm worried about school, not certain how I'm going to catch up after missing two classes, I'm worried about money and most of all, I'm worried about not having the foggiest idea what I really want out of life.

So, I crashed.

When I woke up this morning, it felt like I'd been hit by a truck. I still feel a bit emotionally messed up and I have a killer headache but at least I don't feel like a total basketcase.

Definitely going to be taking it easy tonight.
I game all the time! LoL Only it's that moogle game that I've been playing. You know...that and driving myself insane with writing.

You ever log on to skype anymore?

That's a pretty brutal shift! I can imagine that you just crash after that. That your regular shift?

I suppose I should re-activate my EVE account. I'd love to play with you but wasn't really digging Warhammer as much as I hoped... too much like all the other RPG types I guess. EVE on the other hand is nice because it's different, so yeah, we should try and hook up for some pirate destruction!