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[School] The essay of DOOOOM

I had an idea for my essay for my class. All four of us in the class did. Our prof has determined that we were all being too ambitious and has whittled down our topics to nearly nothing.

I wanted to explore the parallels between Freud's theory of totemism and taboo (found in his book by the same name) and the Four Noble Truths of Buddhism. Apparently that is too broad of a topic and now I'm left with trying to explore totemism and taboo as it appears in the legend of the birth of the Buddha, bringing in the concepts found in Ernest Jones' Motherright and the Sexual Ignorance of Savages. Sure there's some correlation in the material but it's not nearly as rich in material, nor am I nearly as knowledgeable about it, as the original idea I'd had.

So I'm stressed and avoiding it. Not a good combination. Every time I try to think about the essay I start feeling that old anxiety disorder kicking in. I'm just trying to re-read the source materials over again at this point.

I figure what I'm going to end up doing is writing about 10-12 pages just outlining the theories and the legend then spending a page or two drawing some wild conjectures about how the symbols have changed but the underlying themes still point to Freud's original concepts of totemism and taboo developing around an initial crime of father-murder. *sigh*

Have I mentioned recently that I can't wait for this to be over? Love the class, hate the stress!
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